I have a lot on my mind and I am going to challenge myself to post on this blog every day about what’s going on and how things are improving. September was a very tough month. This week in particular was extremely tough. Like, my washing machine died during boys’ soccer team tryouts and they needed separate gym clothes from school clothes everyday tough! We did get a new washer/dryer combo (see how pretty they are!), but there were a few frustrating nights of washing clothes by hand in the laundry room sink, wringing out as much water out of them as possible, and throwing them in the dryer as they were needed in the morning.
I’m never one of those people that get caught by major events or holidays that might make me sad, depressed or anxious. It’s the little things that hit me out of nowhere. I don’t think it’s my daughter’s 21st birthday in a few days making me sad, it’s when I walk past her room and see it empty of all furniture because it’s at her new apartment in Alabama. It’s not my twin boys starting middle school making me feel old, it’s the wrinkles and crepeiness on my neck. And let’s not get started on the stress and anxiety of going back to the office, while juggling the boys back at school and soccer practices/games, and the never-ending to do list of administrative things I need to get to, but don’t seem to do in a timely manner. No wonder when I had my wellness assessment at work, my blood pressure was a bit high! I feel so stressed 100% of the time and I can’t take it anymore.
I want to get back to a morning routine that is productive, not just me rushing the boys through their tasks to get on the bus, and then chilling out with coffee and a book until it’s time I have to rush around and get to work. I want to get back to exercising. That would definitely help my blood pressure as well as my mental state. I also took today off work to get through some life admin tasks that have been hanging over my head. I know I have quite a few vacation days I can take off work to keep doing that, I just need to find a way to fit it into the schedule to do it more often. I want to clean up my to do list today, both work and personal, and make sure I’m tackling the right things. I should even write up some goals for the remainder of the year. Especially as this is the last 90 days of the year. I do not want to go into 2022 feeling like this!!!
I’ll be back early tomorrow morning with my updates!